I didn't know.

I didn't know that I would cry just for talking about him. Am I that weak? It was painful. Very painful when you control your tears and they burst out suddenly. Otherwise, I'm very happy. Nobody could be talkative like me. I talk the loudest. I laugh the loudest. And I cry the loudest.

I hate this feeling.

Loitering in Senawang.

I got a call from Sharva at 11am. She told she was coming to my house at 1pm. So I got up , took my bath and had my breakfast. I know it was very late. Then she came around 12.30pm. She stays in S2. So I told her oklah we go lepak somewhere in Senawang. After we took our lunch at my house, I called Visha and we went to Giant since it's the nearest supermarket. After ages, I took bus with my friends. We did nothing there because we didn't have much money. Just ended up snapping some pictures and seeing some stuffs.

Then, we went to Pizza Hut. Since Sharva didn't bring enough money, Visha and I had to pay. So here are the pictures.

She loves Pooh Bear.

Haha I'll never forget this picture. We were scolded by one of the guard there for snapping pics. Like WTH!!

~the chocolate volcano~

After eating and everything, we came back. Sharva's parents fetched us up. We went to Sheli's house which is in my taman. Sharva went back to her house and we stayed here. Then, we walked to next taman (Tmn Dahlia) to visit our friends Thiru and Samuel. We met our sejarah Sir on the way. I asked him when our results is gonna come out and he said on coming 18th March. It's quite late but still better than coming out on 28th Feb. Thiru wasn't at her home. So we went to Sam's house. We were just talking about his work and JPJ test. Then we walked back to my house. We were talking about our friends and everything la. They know what. :D

Now, I'm very exhausted and dehydrated. Wish we could go out somewhere farer with all the other friends. I miss them freaking much!! ♥

A thoughtful night.

I thought a lot last night. Lots of things. I had a deep heart to heart conversation with my friend. It was all about him and how and why I should move on. What she said was really true. Won't people laugh behind your back if they know you can't get over your ex even after 1 year+? Of course they will. My close friends will not but how about his friends, HIM and his new gf if he has one? I've tried so many times. It is also my new year resolution. You know how it feels when he's always in your mind although you try to delete the memories. I don't know what kind of feelings I have on him. Love, obsession or just affection ? But he doesn't leave my mind at all. Why do I still care about him ? Why should I care what he's doing, how and where he is? Does he care about me? Does he ever feel sorry for me? Not at all. He's so happy with his life. He has moved on. He's completely different now from how he was with me. I don't know if this is his true character but he didn't show to me because he was in love with me.

Ok Anu move on!!! Forget everything. You have better things to do. Focus on your future plans. You wanna do biotech with full scholarship right? Bye!

Results.

I feel very paranoid nowadays. What are really examinations for? Why are they so important? A single white paper determines our lives entirely.

Although I get good marks in my subjects, I will never tell myself that I'm a bright student. It really pisses me off when people say I will get all A's. It's just because I'm in the top 5. Errrrrr. Common guys. You know how many best students in our country itself? Like thousands. Even my school have genius students. I'm still weak in many subjects like account, BM and MORAL!!! Moral?? It could be the easiest subject that ever existed but the hardest one for me. My mum always says I'm not a 'budak bermoral'. It really gets on my nerves.

I really wish I was born rich. Poverty kills me! Ok I'm not very poor but just typical. I had to squeeze all my energy and brain to study. If I was rich, I wouldn't crave for scholarships or sponsors. I could study anything I want with my own money in some private colleges. Without scholarship, my dreams will never come true. With the heavy competition, I have a very little hope for getting a scholarship.

Besides that, I'm not very good in co-curricular. Sports and me are like the earth and sky. It matters a lot for choosing a best student. Errr. Thinking of it makes my blood boil.

Results. Many are saying that results are gonna come out on 28th of Feb which are just few days away. I'm eager to know my results yet at the same time it worries me a lot.

Ok however, just hope for the best. I pray for you and you pray for me. :)

Internet Love Song

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If I could google to find a way
To help me say that I like you
I’d go yahoo make you my boo
Within a day or two

If I messaged, would you read it
Tweet it would you see it
Cause I can’t say it to your face
If I post it up on aim
Would it be the same?
Oh well, here goes nothin’

I’m gonna poke you ‘cause I miss you
Like you cause I do
Reblog everything that reminds me of you
I hope you get the hint
And if you don’t get it yet
I’m tryna say I like you the use of the internet

This is my internet love song
Doo bee doo bee doo
w w w. i like you

You wouldn’t be forever alone
If you were down to get with me (smiley face)
LOL, JK, NVM
What do I really wanna say?

LOL lots of love
GTG got to get you
SMH for me’s you stole my heart
I know that that was cheesy
But what do you expect
If it comes from the heart, it don’t gotta be correct

I can’t even express how I feel
www.this is real
So I log in just to aim you
But you ain’t online, forreal?
So I upload a song on YouTube
Dedicate it to you boo
I hope you listen ‘cause this song is just for you
Google I’m feelin’ lucky
So can you answer this?
I’ll formspring her under Mr. Annonymous
Tweet her 143 I miss you, I love you
What did I miss?
Here’s my internet love song

FaceBook status this.

Happy Valentine's Day! ♥

So, it's valentine's day tomorrow but it's SINGLE AWARENESS DAY for me. I have never celebrated valentine's day in my life before even when I had boyfriend. There was once when he text-ed me wishing Happy Valentine's Day and I love you. That was all but the wishes really meant a lot to me. I didn't expect anything from him. And I had the message until last December. Due to some technical problems in my hand phone, all his messages were erased. That's okay. Since he's not with me, what are the messages for?

Every year, Valentine's day is just another day for me. I always want to go out and exchange gifts with my friends but it has never happened. Though, I look forward to celebrating with them someday. All I want for this year's Valentine's day is a Domo-kun stuff. But there is no one to buy me one. :(. So I guess I should buy it for myself or ask from my parents.

After my last relationship, I am running away from love. It's not the love but the pain and hurt that might follow. Currently, he's just my obsession. He's always in my mind but I don't love him. I got over him, isn't it good? I started believing no matter how long you love them, it will only last if you're meant to be. It's not about how hard both of you try.

So, that's all for now. HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY again to my friends and family!! Have a good one. :D

You !

You actually noticed me ! I didn't get surprised.

Start.

Heyya there!! This is my first post on my third blog. Actually, it has been more than one year since I touched my last blog. In fact, I lost interest in blogging. Since many people started having one, so why don't I start blogging again? Blogging is fun if you have followers to read your posts and comment on them. However, I don't seek for followers but I will be grateful if my blog catches your attention.

This is my own personal blog. I will be writing about me, my daily routines,my friend and as well as my family. So let me introduce myself first.

I'm Anusiya d/o Chandra. I'm the only child for my parents. I'm from Malaysia. I'm gonna be 18 years old. Presently, I'm jobless. Waiting for my SPM results which is gonna determine my future. I love my friends a lot. A life without them is unimaginable.

Why did I open a blog? Hmm why ah ? It was because of my holidays. Holidays drive me crazy!! How long can I keep my eyes pinned to TV or facing my computer? You know what? I even did write a story but it stopped in half way. My imagination skill is pretty poor. LOL. So by blogging, I hope I can get rid of my boredom.

Things I love to do. Ewww it's an endless list. First is of course Facebook-ing. In fact, I'm addicted to Facebook. I know I'm not the only one. Right? I am also a camwhore. Though, I'm not professional photographer and not a DSLR camera owner. I snap lots of self portrait. Literally, half of my day is spent with my camera. Then, I love reading but I'm not a nerd ok. I read stories book as well as e-books. Reading is fun you know. Besides that, I love listening to music too. Tamil songs are always my first choice and I'm proud of it. Yet, Taylor swift, Bruno Mars, Rihanna, and Lady gaga are also my favourites.

As my fingers go numb, I stop here.