Matriculation.

Matriculation Program results came out today. I checked it at 12.20am. :D Seriously, I was so desperate to know it. I got Kolej Matrikulasi Perak. Many of my friends also got. Kir and Prasanth got same college with me, Visha got Melaka and Tharani got Kuala Pilah. Visha and Tharani are so lucky for getting near one. Anyways congrats to them. However, I'm still waiting for JPA. Matriks is my second option. If I don't get JPA, I'll do Matriks. So hope I get JPA la. Good luck to me. :)

My 18th birthday bash !!!!

Heyyaaa!!! Sorry for not updating my blog. Haha k I know nobody reads it though. On last Sunday 24th April, I turned 18. Happy belated birthday to meee!

I did a small birthday party at my place. I invited all my friends and relatives. However, some of my friends couldn't make it. And they had reasons for not making it. It's okayy. They're forgiven. :D
Actually I wanted all to come because this would be our last year to be together. I wanted to celebrate my birthday with all of them. So it was disappointing a bit when some didn't come. After this all of us will go to different places to pursue their studies. So having a gathering like this will be once in a blue moon. Doesn't it sound sad? How nice it would be if all of us study at same place.

However, they cannot be replaced by my new friends. They're awesomeee and always there for me. Although we had misunderstandings, we're still together.

Before I start tearing, let's stop here. Papai!

P/S: Thanks for all the wishes and gifts again!! Appreciate them. ♥

Ok I never thought you would read this coz nobody reads my blog. I'll stop writing about u ok ? This will be the last post about you. Since you didn't reply me, I don't know if you're mad with me or what. Although you've have told me so many times, I'm still doing it. So I know it's entirely my fault. I'm really sorry.

My big day: JPA interview.

After procrastinating for four days, now I'm writing about my JPA interview which was on 12th April.

A night before: I was preparing on all the current and health issues. Intro as well. Although introducing ourself is easy, I was worried that I would stammer during the interview. :D Then, I went to my bed earlier than usual. At 12am.

On the day: I got up at 8am and got ready for the interview. After taking breakfast at a restaurant, we moved to USIM. Yes, the interview was held at USIM, Nilai. It was near and the place was familiar to my dad. I saw a Malay guy when we were parking our car. I smiled at him and asked him how the interview was. He said it was easy. I felt relieved a bit. After entering the entrance, there were so many parents and students. It was 10.20am. Checked my name on the list and I was the second in my panel ( panel 1). After getting kiss from my parents, I went upstairs. Parents were asked to wait downstairs.

It was a big library. Few girls were sitting there and I joined them. They were really good and friendly. I knew one of them. She came to the same tuition with me. They were also nervous like me. But after talking to them, I lost my nervousness. Then there was a lady came to our table and asked for our files. It was 11.05am. After giving our files to her and taking our tags, we went into our interview room.

We were five girls in our group. Two malay girls, two chinese girls and I was the only Indian. Our interviewers were 1 Malay woman, 1 Chinese man and 1 Malay man. After wishing them Selamat Pagi, we were asked to sit.

First we were asked to intro ourself. After I finished introducing myself, I was asked, "Why do you choose medicine?" I answered it's my and my parents dreams. I love helping people. It's a noble profession. And I said so many things la.

Then, the malay woman asked us, "Apakah langkah-langkah mengawal darah tinggi?" I raised my hand to answer but before me a malay girl did. After her turn, I answered about bersenam and melakukan pemeriksaan kesihatan. I crapped a bit. Haha.

After that, we were asked, "What does make you more qualified than other students for this scholarship?" I answered, my results say it out all first if all. And I also talked about how I worked hard for this and financial problem.

Then, they asked us, " What's my weakness and how u overcome it?" I said, my weakness is I'm very a dependent person and always depend on my parents. Then, I changed myself and bla bla bla la..

Then, they asked us, "What's my mistake I've done in my life?". I answered, I'm a very last minute worker, how it affects my trial exam and how I correct it.

Hmm then, they asked us again, "What would you do if you're not given this scholarship?" I really expected this question. Well, I answered that, I'll do form 6 or Matriks and try to get four flat and conitue my studies in local Uni. 4 of ur answered the same and only 1 girl said she'll do foundation in private college.

Again, they asked us, "Would you accept if you're offered to study in local?" I said, yes I would and I gave few reasons la.

I thought those were all but we had group discussion. I was like errr WTH!! It's not fair. My friends in other panels didn't have group discussion and why we had. Fortunately, we were asked a very easy question. It was "Sebagai doktor, berikan langkah-langkah mengawal sikap merokok dalam kalangan remaja." They asked us to discuss and give them an effective langkah. After discussing for few minutes, we found out that the most effective langkah is mengadakan ceramah. We had points to elaborate on it. So we chose it.

Then, they said the interview was ended. We said Terima Kasih, shook hand with the woman and went out of the room as fast as possible. We screamed you know. Hahaha. Seriously, it was so relieved and the first word came out from my mouth was 'a heavy burden is lifted off'. It was also my Facebook status.

And yeah that's all. I guess I did well in my interview. Hope everything goes well. Good luck to me. :D ♥

The worst night mare ever!

I was waken up by a dream. He introduced his new gf to me. I was like WTH!! And the dream seemed so real. Don't ask me who the girl was k. I didn't see her face. I cried in the dream itself. Gosshh. I hate this la. I'm still on the border between giving up or staying. You stop appearing in my dreams la please. You're coming into my dreams more often now. Almost everyday.

And yeah I went to school today with my friend to get signatures for my scholarships thingy. Then, I went to the tailor to get my baju kurung. It was awesomely sewed. Tomorrow, I have JPA interview at USIM at 11.05am. Now, I'm preparing myself for the introduction and group discussion. I went thru many students and ex-scholars' blogs. They wrote about their interview experience. It didn't sound scary for me. Yet I'm very nervous and I can feel butterflies and all the insects dancing in my stomach. So bye for now. :)

JPA

Oh yess! I'm chosen for JPA interview! Congrats to me. Hehe. Well, it's just an interview. I haven't been chosen for the scholarship though. My friends Kirthiga, Prasanth and Sharva are also selected. Some of my tuition mates from other schools are also selected. Congrats to them. Well my interview will be on 12th. All my other friends got different dates. And I'm the first going for the interview.

GOOD LUCK EVERYONE!!

PLEASE I REALLY WANNA KNOW WHO THE 'GUEST' ON MY SHOUT BOX !! ARE YOU ONE OF MY FRIENDS, HIS FRIENDS, HIS COUSINS OR YOU ?? PLEASE TELL ME WHO YOU'RE!!!! I'M SURE YOU'RE MY CLOSEST PERSON. YOU KNOW ME. PLEASE ? INBOX ME OR ANYTHING.

Get well soon Mum! ♥

~With my mum at Penang. ~

Oh yess my mum is back from hospital. She's better now although she's still sick. Hope she will sleep peacefully tonight. She told me she hasn't had a good sleep since last Monday. The hospital atmosphere makes her sicker. And my parents are asking me to be a DOCTOR!! I know I can be one. I can do anything. But I'm not sure If I have passion for being one. When I was small, I wanted to be a doctor. After entering Form 1, I wanted to be an accountant because I love Mathematics. Then, in Form 4, I wanted to do biotech because I didn't like accounting but BIOLOGY. See I don't know what I want to do. After getting my results, my whole family is asking me to do medicine. So I came back to my first ambition. Being a doctor. The worse thing is being a doctor is very competitive. As I know almost all the straight A+'s students want to be a doctor. Only some them chose other fields like engineering. I'm totally blur.

Adding dilemmas to dilemmas that I've already had, my friend asked me a question. Well it's about love and my ex bf. She asked what I would do if I'm proposed by a guy after entering college. I told her I would think. But honestly, I wouldn't think nor love the new guy. As everyone knows I still love my ex. Crazy ain't ? Yes, I know I'll never get him back. I don't even have a small degree of hope. But something holds me. Something tells me that he's my soul mate. Hahaha. And I told to my another friend maybe he might have a very very little amount of love on me. Who knows. I added if I ever think so, I'm the stupidest girl in the world. And she said,"YOU ARE." Maybe he's in love with some one else. But I was his first love. I know his each and every character. But it's fine if he's with another person. I don't want him back though.

For now, I want my mum to get well. I wanna go shopping with her. I have lots of things to buy. Nothing is better than shopping with your mum.

Review of my days.

I know I'm not a good blogger at all. If I was, I would've updated my blog. :D

So, let's start with last Thursday. I had my jpj retest on the day. It was at 2pm. My friend Vino also had test with me and another friend, Prasanth had retest at 11am. Sad to say, I failed again!! It was like shit la. I failed both. During practice, I could do well. I didn't know what was wrong during the test. Prasanth passed both and Vino passed the first part but failed the road one. On the same day, there was a talk for SPM leavers at MIC building. Vino and I couldn't make it because we had jpj test but all my friends went. I was sad and my face was so pale. The test finished at 4 something. So, Vino wanted to go the talk but I didn't want. I didn't want to see my friends. I was worried they would laugh at me or what. But somehow, she convinced me and we went there with my dad. I think I knew almost everyone there. Most of them were my tuition mates. Then I joined my friends. Luckily none of them teased me. They were just convincing me. Thank god !! They said Prasanth told them I was really sad. Thanks a lot dei for not making fun of me. :D Hahaha. So probably my test will be in May. Haizzz. It's very late.

Hmmm now my mum is sick. Very sick. She has been sick since last Monday. I've never seen her like that before. She has backache and this time it's quite serious. I cried seeing her suffering in pain. I didn't tell to all my friends. Hope she'll be fine soon.

Yesterday after visiting my mum at hospital, I went to buy kain for baju kurung. Yes I'm gonna wear baju kurung for my JPA interview. I'm so nervous about the interview. Im not prepared at all. I don't what they will ask. What topic they will give me. Haizzz. My seniors said they will test our confidence and GK only. So there's nothing to worry. But only I know how weak I am in GK. So just wait and see what future holds for me. :D Ok taaata! papai.